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Monday, August 16th, 2004
10:33 pm - Yawn
So I haven't been here for.. hmm(checks last post)... a damn long time.

A friend of mine asked me to try this again.. so here I am.

I'll try to post more when I think about it.

Oh.. and I'll have to fix my picture.. I cut my hair :)

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Thursday, September 20th, 2001
5:46 pm - Work and Life
Well, I realize I haven't been updating much and I'm sorry. It's been busy and I've been very tired lately, probably from too much stress over the last week.

Anyways, I started work on the 4th did some training and then got my first project on the 11th. my partner and I finished that one in a couple days and I finished my next one a couple days after that. Just simple reports, nothing terribly exciting. VB with some SQL, not hard.

Now that I'm done with both of those(reports are given to the newbs here because we can learn the architechture a bit while doing them and cant break anything) they've put me to work doing stuff with oracle(they originaly were just going to support sqlserver but have decided that it is important to support both). Not doing anything neat yet. Just testing stored procedures to make sure they work. Finished the ones I was assigned today and will probably tinker w/ them a bit 2morrow and then who knows.

Work's been pretty cool and the people seem really nice but I'm still lonely. I don't really go out much and have been spending alot of time alone(both at home and at work, my cube is waaaaay far in a corner with no neighbors). But other than that things have been going well.

I am a little worried about losing my touch w/ C and C++ and maybe java so I've gotta start programming at home soon. Anybody got any Ideas for programs that need to be written?... I can write for both MS and Linux now since I got VC++... course I'm better at linux :)

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Saturday, September 15th, 2001
10:12 pm - I'm back!!
Well I finaly got my cable modem and I'm all online now(well kinda.. I'm fairly sure this should be dhcp but hey, if I can hold onto this ip addy long enough I'll be happy) so hopefully I'll be able to post more often.

I'd write more now but my girlfriend has come up this weekend for a visit and I don't want to spend her whole visit online so I'll try to write more sunday or monday.

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Saturday, September 8th, 2001
9:44 pm - First week of work
Well, first off sorry I haven't updated more recently. I still don't have internet access at home but should be getting it next saturday(/me crosses my fingers that the tech will be cool and give me enuf info to get it working w/ linux).

My first week at work has been pretty good, I'm way behind everybody else in training but that's ok since I'm fairly sure that nobody else really has a clue either. I'm really enjoying my place of employment, and the people there... but i still really miss people from CS(please don't feel like i've abandoned you all, I've just been busy and have been too tired when I get home to call anybody).

One surprise that greeted me on my first day was a company wide anouncement that the dress code was going from business casual to casual casual on a permanent basis. I'm still not sure what to do about that. I don't really feel comfortable coming in to work in shorts and a t-shirt, but I don't want to stand out as "that guy who's too good to wear casual close" or anything. I guess I'll have to play it by ear.

Oh, technology wise I'm not worried. I've been playing w/ VB for 3 days now and think I've gotten a grasp on most of the syntax and to be honest this seems almost more of a web development job than an actual programming job. Hopefully that will not turn out to be the case(damn, I can already hear nipsy laughing at me ;p).

well, I'll write more later. I've gotta get offline right now b/c my sis needs this computer to do homework on. Oh, yeah, I'm visiting my folks this weekend(just for the night, my grandparents are in town so I decided to come over to have dinner with them). Hmm.... I think tomorrow will be filled with running errands and reading "Soul Harvest"(nipsy, these stupid books are good, its not fair)

Ok, I'm beginning to ramble.... sorry... guess I'm just tired. I'll write more when I get the time(and am online)

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Wednesday, August 29th, 2001
8:37 pm - Back in the US, but little rest there or here
Well, I'm back from spain... wow, it was a cool trip. Some parts of spain were absolutely amazing, both the people and places were amazing. I hope to have a website up in a month or so with all the pictures and stories from the trip.

The guitar I brought back is a beautiful flamenco guitar that was handmade by the gentleman I bought it from. It sounds amazing and now I really have to learn how to play flamenco style.

The jet-lag is kicking in now so I'll end this post earlier than I expected to. It's great to be back in the states and I can't wait to start living in my new apartment starting this friday.

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Friday, August 10th, 2001
1:24 am - Feeling much better
Well, I'm in fort worth at my parent's house after moving the majority of my stuff to my new apartment in dallas. I feel much happier about this whole graduating and moving thing now. I don't know why but just getting it done and seeing some of my stuff in the new apartment cheered me up a great deal.

Unfortunately I'm not going to get to stay in my new apartment for another 3 weeks as I'm leaving on my trip soon...but that's ok, especially since I don't have a bed yet :P

tomorrow my ferrets have to go to the vet to be boarded for the duration of my trip to spain... I'm very sad and scared that they are going to get sick or be unhappy while I'm gone... they are very important to me right now, they're the only ones who are going to be in dallas that I can trust 100% to be there when I need them. Who knows, the look in thier eyes lately has been making me feel like they're just as worried about my well-being on the trip as I am about their's.

I don't know how I'm feeling about having people come to my graduation saturday. I'm happy they're comming but to be honest I'd just as soon skip it myself, I did highschool graduation and was nonplussed, maybe this one will be better... I'm fairly sure I'll start to tear up when they play "spirit of aggieland"... that song has always brought a tear to my eye ever since the bonfire crash.

Nobody on my mom's side of the family is comming... I don't know how I feel about it... people from my dad's side are comming from missouri for 2 days just to see me graduate, but on my mom's side they couldn't be bothered to drive 3 hours for it... I'm trying to not be mad about it, I mean I just said I wish I didn't have to go so why should I be mad that thier not. Still, It does kinda bother me that not one of them could come, especially since I've always been so proud of that side of my family... they're my cuban side and they're so interesting and fun to be around. Oh well, I guess I won't be going to christmas with them anymore... bah humbug.

On a lighter note I'm excited about the trip to spain. It should be alot of fun, we've got everything planned out and we should be set to jet(of course I probably need to try to go buy some new clothes before we go... I'm always surprisingly short of shorts for trips like this). I'm not looking forward to the flight, which is odd since I used to love flying, but I'm sure it'll be ok and I'll take plenty of books to pass the time(applied cryptology oughta be a good sleeping aid). Seeing spain will be delightful, I just wish I was as talented at taking pictures as some people on lj. I'm afraid people will probably look at the pictures I bring back and think spain is not nearly as attractive as it really is ;P


Ok, This has gotten WAY toooo long. I might try to leave another note saturday(the next time I'll have adequate net access) but if not, I'll see yall round

ALex

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Monday, August 6th, 2001
9:50 pm - cruising at 2,384,579 to 1 against and falling...
Well this may be the last entry for a while since I'm moving to plano this week. I won't be re-connected untill I get back from spain sometime around the last week of august. I'm not exactly sure when the dsl line will be installed because I'm fairly sure I won't have time to fuss with it untill after I've gotten back.. but maybe I'll know sooner. Either way it'll be sometime after the 28ths before I'm back.

I have mixed feelings about all this change and stuff. I figure I"ll be ok, but to be honest I'm really not feeling like taking a trip out of the country right now. I know, I know, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity... lucky to be able to go... etc and I am happy about going. But to be honest I'm worried about the move working out and I'm worried about putting the ferrets up w/ the vet and I'm worried about missing liz and being away from her.... so all of that is making the trip look less fun right now than it should. Plus I have no idea how my family is going to act once we get there.. It could be fine, or it could suck... it all depends.

If my mom decides that I'm still her 'baby' even though I'm starting work and all it could get ugly. Not that I mind her treating me like her child but sometimes she get's pushy and asks me to be different from what I am and that just get's frustrating. She also knows exactly how to push my buttons and I'm not sure that on this trip i'll be able to handle that, especially with all the stress I've been under lately with the move and all.

But hopefully It'll all work out peachy and I'll have a great time in spain. I'll see escorial, I'll eat entirely too much tapas, I'll drink entirely too much wine. And a good time will be had by all.


Wow, I've drifted a long way from where I started now didn't I... Well if I don't seeya before I move don't worry, I'm fine and I'll be back in town before you know it. Good luck, and best wishes....



"three to one... two ... one ... probability factor of one to one.... we have normality, I repeat we have normality... Anything you still can't cope with is therefore your own problem"

--- Douglas Adams

current mood: Bored and antsy

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Sunday, August 5th, 2001
3:03 pm - home again
Well, My gf dropped me back home this morning and I already miss her. I wish I wasn't moving this week but I have no choice now, graduation is saturday and I have to move my sh*t out on wed. I have 3 finals in the next two days but they should be easy... I'm mostly worried about the move. It's not going to be easy, especially with my jaw still hurting like hell but I'll do my best. Sunday I fly to spain and should be really excited but instead I'm just worried... oh well I'm sure it'll be fun once I get there.

Ugh, I really don't feel tooo bad but I'm a bit upset about leaving my girlfriend here. I'm going to miss her and really hope I don't lose her. Ok, maybe the drugs(or lack thereof) are talking now because I really should be in a better mood right now.

current mood: blah

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Friday, August 3rd, 2001
4:23 pm - mggfffff fjmmmmmf fjdfsfjmmfff
Ugh, well Yesterday I got my 4 wisdom teeth out and now I can barely talk. Lots o' fun, but at least none of them were impacted. The really fun part is I'm on vikadin(sp?) so everything is REALLY relaxing and groovy, except in the back of my mind I know that I have finals monday and tuesday, whooooopppeeeeeee!!!!.

Hmm... oh well, they should be easy, besides the prof's like me(even my correspondance ones who've never seen me(course that might have been a good thing))

Anyways, I might be posting alot more this weekend since I don't have much else in the way of communication with the outside world right now.

My girlfriend is taking care of me(she does a wonderful job, making sure I eat, and sleep, and avoid doing silly alex-like things that will inhibit my healing) but I feel kinda bad because she had a really terrible class today with the prof yelling at her and stuff and there's nothing I can do. I can't even seem to think of anything to tell her as advice because the drugs are keeping me from focusing enough on it.

Oh well... she'll be ok, I know that. And she knows that if she needs me I'll do anything I can, drugged up or not.

ooohhhkkkieeeedooookiiieeeee.. i think it's getting close to time for me to be getting back in bed... the room is swaying and I can barely keep focused.... but it's sooooo relaxing.

current mood: high

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4:23 pm - mggfffff fjmmmmmf fjdfsfjmmfff
Ugh, well Yesterday I got my 4 wisdom teeth out and now I can barely talk. Lots o' fun, but at least none of them were impacted. The really fun part is I'm on vikadin(sp?) so everything is REALLY relaxing and groovy, except in the back of my mind I know that I have finals monday and tuesday, whooooopppeeeeeee!!!!.

Hmm... oh well, they should be easy, besides the prof's like me(even my correspondance ones who've never seen me(course that might have been a good thing))

Anyways, I might be posting alot more this weekend since I don't have much else in the way of communication with the outside world right now.

My girlfriend is taking care of me(she does a wonderful job, making sure I eat, and sleep, and avoid doing silly alex-like things that will inhibit my healing) but I feel kinda bad because she had a really terrible class today with the prof yelling at her and stuff and there's nothing I can do. I can't even seem to think of anything to tell her as advice because the drugs are keeping me from focusing enough on it.

Oh well... she'll be ok, I know that. And she knows that if she needs me I'll do anything I can, drugged up or not.

ooohhhkkkieeeedooookiiieeeee.. i think it's getting close to time for me to be getting back in bed... the room is swaying and I can barely keep focused.... but it's sooooo relaxing.

current mood: high

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Tuesday, July 24th, 2001
1:45 pm - 2pm and I'm still awake
Well, I'm feeling pretty good for a guy who is running on 4 hours of sleep. Funny how lots o' coffee and mtn. dew will do that :)... actually it's kinda neat the way you can get very little sleep but when the time of day rolls around where you're usually awake you feel fine.

Anyways, they finally fixed my AC, no more drip drip drip. They're supposed to send somebody by to fix my carpet now(waterlogged from the AC) and a painter to fix where they had to cut a hole in my ceiling. After that happens maybe I can finish cleaning my apartment(last night I got everything picked up and put in it's place, now I need to do the dusting/mopping/etc).

Damn, hungry again... only ate once yesterday.. kinda weird, just not hungry, hmm... eggos anyone? :)

current mood: awake

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10:25 am - can this week be any more frustrating?
Well, I got 4 hrs of sleep last night so I could be up at 8:30 when the maintanance men were supposed to stop by to fix my leaky air conditioner(5 days drippy and counting). Of course they haven't shown up yet and that means they won't be leaving at noon like they said they would. They're going to have to cut out part of my ceiling to replace the leaky part so it will take a while to fix. I took the ferrets to my girlfriends last night so they wouldn't have to be exposed to all the dust and eventually paint fumes that will be filling my apartment.

Ugh, so this week is not going at all like I'd hope it would. I'm also worried about taking my tests in my correspondance classes.. I just sent off the exam requests but I don't know if I'll get to take the tests in time to get my diploma soon... UGH!!

Oh well... At least I'll get to take a nap today(the repair guys won't stay past quittin' time I'm sure)

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Friday, July 20th, 2001
6:38 pm
Well, the paper is pretty much done, joy of joys... perhaps I'll revisit the topic here in my journal sometime since it's one I think about a lot.

Now off to my girlfriend's place where I will have pizza and then who knows, maybe more racquetball.

Happy feelings to everybody reading :)
(I know, all the sudden I'm all mushy 'n stuff)

current mood: energetic

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2:59 pm
Damnit... Does anybody want a bunny?... seriously, I need to find somebody to take my girlfriends bunny, she doesn't have enough time to spend with it and it's reacting accordingly(she just called me, it tore up the carpet in her closet). Ugh, I hate when she calls about it because she's soooo pissed off and there's nothing I can do or say so I just have to sit there and listen to her curse and complain... I know she's not complaining about me, it just sucks because if I say anything she get's mad at me. I've been trying to get better about it, just say "I'm sorry to hear that" and no more, but it makes me uncomfortable. I always want to talk about it and try to help her find a solution, but she's already given up or chosen a solution so my talking to her about it just makes her mad 'cause she thinks I'm trying to tell her what to do. Crap, now it's gonna be bothering me and make writing this stupid paper more difficult.

Ok, good news.... my AC is fixed so it's no longer making a large puddle in my bathroom... I got back grades from my correspondence classes.. all A's and a big comment from my ethics professor. about one of my essays(apparently she disagrees... but she's pretty cool and doesn't detract from my score since I covered my points well enough).

Ok, back to work... if my girlfriend doesn't break out of this funk she's been in the last couple of days it's gonna be a long ass weekend... oh well... I love her sooo much... Maybe I'll take her to that stupid movie this weekend, perhaps that'll cheer her up a bit.

current mood: frustrated

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Thursday, July 19th, 2001
7:09 pm
well, I've gotten the paper about halfway done, it sucks, but I'll go through and polish it and make it look credible later ;)

The plan for tonite is to shower, shave, go get a movie, and go spend the evening with my girlfriend. She's making spaghetti too :) :) :)

hmm... not much else to say today.

current mood: indifferent

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4:09 pm
grumble grumble... three pages written and quite frankly it's all crap.... ugh, I can't wait till this is done.

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1:37 pm
Well, I am happy to report that I am not naked :). I got all my laundry done so now I've got clothes to wear. I've also now got to deal with a pile of laundry that's 4 feet tall . Folding laundry sucks.

I have to write a 10 page paper today on computing ethics. Ah... the joys of bashing microsofts unethical practices ;p. I knew that reading so much slashdot.org would pay off eventually.

Then later tonite I'm gonna go play racquetball, I'm looking forward to that. Then I'll probably spend tomorrow with my girlfriend, maybe we'll go to the movies(she and I want to see America's sweethearts because Christopher walken is in it). Then Sunday I'll come home and work on Artificial Intelligence.

current mood: good

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Wednesday, July 18th, 2001
6:28 pm
Well, laundry is going great, almost done.....

Unfortunately my apt. complex decided that today would be a good time to inform me that I have to give 30 days written notice that I'm moving out or pay sizable "re-leasing" fee. I say unfortunately because I'm moving out on august 15th. Yeah, it's in my lease all right, and yeah they sent out notes asking if I wanted to renew my lease... but nobody pointed this fact out when I signed the lease(which is 10 pages long) and there was no mention of the fee on the notices.

I know, I'm the dumbass for not reading the lease end-to-end.. but it's still frustrating.. I hate being screwed by apt-complexes(which has happened at every one I've lived at) and I really hate paying sizable sums of money(well.. sizable for a college student) to people with a bad attitude. The manager kept treating me like I was arguing with her, which I wasn't.. I was just asking simple questions like "how much is the re-leasing fee?"... I wonder if it has something to do with the way I look... maybe it's time to cut the hair and go for "respectable"... [god | Allah | other_deity | null] help me, I hate that idea.

Oh well. Dad told me not to worry about it... he's been really helpful the last few months, guess he realizes that I won't be asking for $$$$ too much longer(I hope).

Ok, back to watching the halfway crummy video I rented and then eating.... damn, I hate eating, so much work to figure out what to eat... and it's never something yummy or even healthy.

Sorry for the rather discontentedness of this entry... I'm sure they'll get better soon.. I'm gonna play w/ linux tonite.. nothing deep either.. just fun stuff.

current mood: morose

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1:22 pm
Well, yesterday was an excellent day!

Had SOOOOOO much fun playing racquetball with my girlfriend. She and I were in a goofy mood and were talking some shit but it was a lot of fun, and a good workout as well. After that we went to eat dinner at Jins.. this AWESOME Chinese restaurant in town, if you live in college station or visit a lot, I definitely recommend you stop by.

After dinner we went to a couple bookstores and I managed to resist the temptation to purchase cool technical books that I probably would never get around to reading... but I did pick up a copy of linux journal and they have this cool article about how to set up speech synthesis and recognition software... I think later today I'm gonna set it up... I've always wanted to be able to talk to my computer and have it talk back ;)

We watched Dr. Strangelove last night... pretty cool movie, I'd recommend it. It's one of those funny things though, if I had known it was by kubrick I probably would have never rented it(I'm just not a fan of his). But since we already had it by the time I figured it out it was too late... I was gonna have to watch the movie, and it was pretty darn funny... slim pickins reminds me a whole lot of my last roommate.

So today I'm gonna do laundry... or tomorrow I'll be writing journal entries naked :p

current mood: amused

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Tuesday, July 17th, 2001
2:55 pm
Well, Today has brought nothing spectacular so far... just got up, played some counter-strike(hideous addiction.... must break free) went to the post office(I swear the lady behind the counter was sizing(sp?) me up to see if she could blow me away... very disgruntled looking...

Have decided that either I need to read all the source code that comes with apt/dpkg or put it on hold for a while and write something simpler... any Ideas(tm) about what kind of applications linux needs?.... maybe a graphical interface for configuring Apache or something... ugh, I wish I was a better programmer... ok, no more negative thoughts for the moment.

Gonna go play racquetball with my girlfriend in a bit... It's been a week or two since I've played so I'm expecting that I'll hurt my shoulder again... that's no fun. Afterwards I have no idea what we'll do, I wish we had some hobbies in common, or at least that we could happily do separate things while being together... no biggie though, we'll probably go rent movies or something... unless nipsy gives me a call to go do something(plz call.. I've been SOOO bored lately)

Ok, enough rambling for now, sorry about the incoherence and misspelling... I'm not very good at this journaling thing.

current mood: intimidated

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